About 2 years ago, I had the opportunity to be in a couple of the filmings for the Beth Moore bible study, James – Mercy Triumphs. That is the same time frame where I was pretty much a basket case, spiritually and mentally. I was looking for something to bring me out of the pit of despair that I was in and I figured if Beth Moore couldn’t do it, no one could. So I went.
I finally decided to do the study and see if the cameras picked up my teared stained face.
Thankfully…they didn’t! I don’t see how they didn’t, because I seem to recall crying from the moment Beth started to teach.
I just love Beth and so far, every one of her studies have been life changing for me.
There’s the back of my head (to the left, above “Romans”). No white hair in the back (then!)…I didn’t plan it that way. I finally just got tired of trying to cover the white in the front and stopped dying my hair. I have naturally white streaks in my hair that start in the front and are growing at a rather alarming rate. I call them my “power streaks”. You know, like Rogue, from the X-Men? The more I use my power, the whiter & wider that streak gets. Oh my, I didn’t realize I had used so much power until today!!
Anyway…I watched the video for session 3 last night, expecting a flood of tears again, but for the life of me, I can’t figure out what caused me to cry so much at the taping. I mean, the session was really good, but it didn’t bring the onslaught of tears like the first time I heard it. In fact, it spoke in some completely different ways to me this time.
Oh, I know that the topic of anguish and joy two years ago triggered all the emotions from just losing Mom & Grannie…that is why I cried so much then, I was focused more on the anguish of her teachings than the joy. But this time, I focused on the joy side of Beth’s teachings.
James 1:2-3…My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into divers temptations, knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience (KJV)
HCSB – Consider it a great joy, my brothers, whenever you experience various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance.
NLT – Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow.
I’m no Bible scholar, but do you see that there are different translations in these three versions?
“Divers temptations – Various trials – Troubles”
So is it a trial, temptation or does it not matter…you just know that you’re in trouble? No matter what it is, I like the NLT’s version, that it becomes an opportunity for great joy.
Beth teaches that joy and anguish can co-exist, can trade places, and can morph into each other. I like that. What starts out as anguish can be changed to joy….like the birth of a child….or a passion….or a restoration of a relationship. Like childbirth, when you think you can’t stand the anguish another minute…then it happens…joy arrives.
I think most people would say that they are living with lots of anguish.
Don’t give up!
Look for the joy that can co-exist with anguish or the anguish that can be traded for joy.
Wait for that moment when anguish explodes and joy dances!